Important fucking discovery
In trying to stop myself from being the way I did when I started doing things I regret, I stopped myself from having fun and acting the way I did before I was involved in activities that made me do things I regret.
AKA...Jill was not being herself all the time and hiding the crazy bitch part that made her have so much fun when she was younger.


I thought I changed a lot over the years till I hung out with a girl I've been friends with but really have hardly seen in the last ten years. I realized I was wearing practically the same outfit I did when she moved away that long ago and I was still thinking how I loved all the crazy shit she did that I would never have the balls to do.

Jenny's started to say, "she missed the old Jill." Seriously, I'm bringing it back to high school only drinking, drugs and having sex will be involved -but everything in moderation. None of this trying to be more reserved crap, life's too short.